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if i die, i hope my family and friends will know what happened to me. all the emotions that i went through, instead of just thinking of some lame reasons. if i die, i hope someone discover what i have been posting before my decisions are made. i dont confide in ppl nowadays cos i feel that they dont care, they wont listen truefully. so i just shut up. but one day if i ever made that decision, i wish that those ppl will understand and realise what i have been wanting to say.

feel so upset all over again. everything is just not right. everything that i planned, everything that i wanted. and i cant help it but to continue crying

i wont pretend to be happy. neither will i openly announce how upset i was. i expressed my unhappiness, people who cares will ask and talk to me. ppl who dont, nothing will happen, i will just be more upset and make the wrong decision as time passes