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scandal with junjie lols

dont think my school ppl will read so i guess its okay to say it here wahahas.

last time they made fun of us, when we are playing in the court then they make the "ten ten ten ten" tune, the wedding tune lols. then recently made fun of us again lols.

dont know why he always wear same shirt/ same colour de shirt with me lols.
like last time long ago both of us wear orange shirt after training, diff shirt somemore. then got one time saturday run wear same shirt also --" then recently, thursday morning wear same shirt then ppl say we couple tee, cos its orange, super bright and only we two wear. anyways, then friday wear same colour tee after training again lols.

and the squash ppl keep like "making chances for us" --"
like that time my captain ask me to ask him sth lols.
or like yesterday, went we on bus they purposely ask me sit beside him, lunch also lols, then tell all the j1s we got something on, coach also know. so lol lols.

but i am more interested in the hockey guy that i met during ab si camp! :D hope can see him tomorrow! *pray* :D

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pity my parents for having kids like us.

haiyo, my sis --"
i dont talk back, i cry. happy?
been crying recently, if you scold me or say nasty things about me and i dont react, that means i am crying. recently crying alot --" especially over family stuff. i dont want to argue so i cry lo haiyo.. crybaby.

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wanted to start out positive cos everything was pretty alright and yesterday as i was talking to ellis, i got the urge to update my blog. but just now --" :"(

haix my previous post i mentioned about the angpao for birthday from my mum, now i really feel like - i dont need money, i need love. sian!!!! angry and sad actually :( but lets not dwell on it.

okays, happy stuff :D
went for AB SI camp(training to be student instructor for a leadership camp) from saturday till monday. enjoyed myself, learnt alot and was glad to be acknowledged by the other campers. found a new crush lololololols! :D

about the acknowledgement part, got ppl nominated me to be the cheif instructor leh, meaning the overall ic. long story lah, to cut short i didnt manage to get any position i think is cos the teachers dont allow cos of my conduct grade(being late for 6 times) BBUUUUTTTTT, i am still very happy that got ppl nominated and voted for me :D as in i know i am not good enough for those post but i just feel like very happy to be acknowledged :D Thankyous!

wahahahs, about my new crush! i didnt know he exist till the camp hahas. i already notice him on the first day of camp cos we same group. though he is not exactly goodlooking but he is just nice. my type wahahas, my friend, samantha analysed and come up with a conclusion that i like those guys who are cute and shy. wahahas, i think thats true. anyways, that guy is just nice, so i miss him on the second day cos not same grouping lols, so sound like hmmmmm, as if i know him for a very long time. anyways, third day we same group again. damn happy de lo, but last day nothing much to do liao :( anyways, third day morning we got pt, played captain's ball. he is in my team ma, then when got ppl pass the ball to me, he tried to intercept and fell right in front of me. so i was like, you very funny leh, we same team de (with a smile :)) then he
was sitting on the floor with his injured knees, and i was right infront of him, checking out his injury. then the next moment was like... he looked into my eyes and said, "heys, sorry leh, i shouldnt have intercept the ball, we same team one" for that moment, i feel like its only me and him, like all those ppl crowding around us dont exist at all.. awwwwww right? :D but after that i held his hand and bring him out of the court, didnt realise that i held his hand, now then remember! :) oh my.. :D

anyways, i dont know if i mention before, i say i like younger guys cos i want to protect them, but at the same time, i want to be protected too. and i think he fits the bill! :D from him falling and still cheng qianging, totally make me feel like protecting him :)

but! i think he likes another girl. haiya! now i am just wishing that we will be in the same committee/ group. its group of 3 wahahahas. *prays*

i think i am funny, when i talk about guys, i am more happy, like although i was sad and crying, now is so much better :D YAY!

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Hmmm. Days pass, now is like end of first term liao, so faaassstttt! :( scare sia, must start to buck up! Tomorrow got ab si camp, scare :( haven't pack :( so troubled now :( very irritated :( just now mum still bombed me with super alot of questions :( I replied quite coldly cos I was very fan inside but don't want to make her angry :(

sian, so many :( faces up there, goin to start positively if I can! Anyways, I put on weigh yet again :( really have to control Liao.

Tomorrow got camp! Hope that I can survive and do well there! :D
anyways, this march holiday I am going to set goals for myself! Gotto catch up with work, lose weight and to think abou alot of stuff, do sone planning, clear my tables and many many more, hope that it will be a fruitful one instead of a wasted one! :D

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Happy birthday to me :D
wasn't as bad as I expected I guess..
Yesterday went to eat with squash ppl, pleasant surprise I would say :)
today in school like any other normal days, just that shake hands with lots of ppl and got many ppl wish me happybirthday hahas :) go back home to sleep lols. Suppose to have like steamboat, slept till 7.30 and forced myself to wake up cos I tot everyone is waiting for me, in the end only sis and mum are eating there, the rest not back yet. Then I go eat, they 2 done liao, dad joins me from work then bro too, sis neh come back yet. Haix, what kind of celebration is this! D:
then eat cake lo.
Just opened my present, like them cos I appreciated the thoughts and effort of ppl giving it to me. If it was in the past I might have complain, saying this and this is so what and so on hahas. Mum pass me an ang pao, she was in the room and I was outside then she just call my name. I know she givin angpao but thought she will come to me and pass, haix feel so wierd, kind of feel like she gave for the sake of giving. Though the amount increased, so what? I don't need these money, I rather they(my whole family) spend more quality time with me, talk to me more so I won't feel like I don't belong here.. Sad moments..
Bring back lots of memories. Still remember when I was younger, we dress up when It was our birthday, mum will cook nice food that we like and then we will take photo together, actually, everyone will dress up :) I don't need any money as present really, I rather celebrate my birthday like how it was celebrate when I was young, where you can see my bright smiles from the photos taken...

I feel like I am drifting apart from this family.. And I don't like it :( can't even remember when was the last time we had dinner together or even watch tv shows together. There is like nothing to talk about anymore. I feel so :'( I don't want this to happen, I know it's not only me, all my siblings too. And among us, we don't talk too, like they never even wish me birthday, my younger sis msged me. I rather she wish me in the face. Haix :'(