Wednesday, December 29, 2010

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I am not ready yet...

Friday, December 24, 2010

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3.30am now.

A good time to stop and think about things :)

difficult to type in Chinese using iPod Dan shi you xie gan Qing hai shi de yong hua wen bian da cai you gan jue.
Yuan Lai wo dui ni bu shi xi huan, zhi shi yang mu...

It's Christmas! :D
got to start doing my homework le, no more maple more than 3 hours from Monday onwards haha!
I want to train harder and perform well in squash! @@ ;) >< :| •^^• :x mixed feelings haha!

My family didn't celebrate Christmas one. Next year I am so going to celebrate it meaningfully! And not stay at home to play comp! *angry face!* D:

Ming tian hui geng hao! JIAYOUS! :D

Thursday, December 23, 2010

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23/12/2002

the day when I recieved my soft toy bear/dog. At first I didn't like it, but it had been with me for 8 years now :)

I will celebrate it's birthday every year. Hold parties where I place all or most of the other soft toys in a circle and let them play. Or bath a muffin or make jelly and pretend to feed it when I actually finish everything myself. This year, I forgotten about it's birthday. I was late for 1 hour and 45 mind :( I m sorry my dear soft toy. Tomorrow shall hold a celebrate for you! I sound zi bi right? But nevermind, this is all part of my life.

For you, my memory :D

Sunday, December 19, 2010

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feel so out of place. even at home, in school, cca, with my besties.

this feeling really sucks. and music is the only thing that can conceal all this sorrow.

i always wonder, what will happen to me when i grow older?
how am i going to communicate with ppl? get a bf, a job, marry, have children and live happily after. it just seems so far fetched. and i am having doubts if i can do it.

is there something wrong with my character? the way i treat people? why it just seem to me that i am unable to achieve all my dreams? D:

Monday, December 13, 2010

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i saw pain in their eyes.

my sister thought i dont care and dont feel anything. but like what i said, its not what i didnt feel or see, its what i didnt say and show. i have not yet found the courage to talk to anyone or to comfort anyone cause i know before i do that i will be the one crying. grandma cried real hard, she practically broke down. everyone is sad. cried when i left. cos i know it will be the last time. the last time that i see my uncle, the last time that i will think of him. but how about his family? everytime, everyday, everything reminds them of him. i feel the sadness.

someone please give us the courage to stay strong..

Sunday, December 12, 2010

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Sad to start blogging with a solem mood.

I hope I am strong enough to face it bravely.

My 5th uncle passed away cause of car accident and tomorrow I am going over to jb for the funeral. It feels kinda wierd. I would say that compared to all the other uncles that I always met during new year, my 5th uncle is the one I least talk to. But, the news of his death is just so sudden and I am saddened by it. My dad too. :( I am trying to supress my tears. How does it feels to lost your kin. Someone so close to you. Be with you through you childhood, your life. I have no idea and don't want to ever experience the painful process. Just hope that everyone can stay strong through this period of time. My dad is a quiet man and he won't tell as how he felt but I know he felt terrible. I can't help. My grandpa fell sick and went to the hospital. This is such a sad sence that I will not want to be involved in...

Everyday the news tells us how many people dies during to whatever reasons. But now, it's too close for comfort, happenin so close to me... I still remember ellis's grandma passing away and she was so sad by it that it kinda affect her in school. Kanagase too, her dad and she is still not over it. I mean nobody will be able to get over the sadness of death but I am sure her dad's death is still bothering her and she still cries over it. Stay strong. And peiying's dad. I cried When I heard the news. I tried to put myself in her shoes. But she is a strong girl. And I hope my family members will be strong enough too, especially my 5th uncle's family.

Why do people die? :(

Friday, October 29, 2010

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i am back! :)

accumlated a lot of things that i wanted to comment.

firstly, during the haze time:
saw a man smoking. feel like going up to him and say.
"look at the haze. and you are still smoking, SIAO AHHHHH?!"

secondly, i scrapped through my promos. but a lot of thing seems to be happening. will find out more tomorrow. i really wish everyone if not most can promote. saw from FB, like a lot (maybe near to hundred?) cant pass..
i scrapped through and know that its by luck. i hope to pass some luck to those ppl too.. :( i know how it feel.. worried, stressed, depressed, sorry for letting their friends and family down.. yesterday, the school called one of my good friend's mum, and my friend cried while talking to her mum through phone, saying sorry and all. i feel so... heartache for her. :( but i cant do anything. i feel like a loser sometimes. dont bother to cheer me up, i will get over it soon. first is the econs paper thing and now this. i was thinking of eamiling the principal.. but i cant find her email.

i am going to find her email now, in my handbook, cant find online. and i hope my next post will be on how i manage to email her.

may god bless all my friends like how he blessed me. i am not a god believer but i said all this all from the bottom of my heart...

Tuesday, July 27, 2010

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omg :(

:) things are getting better. everything i guess.

:( I am SAD.
my life is so.. unfun. i want a more meaningful life.

:( my blog also nobody read de
:( blog for what?
:( facebook also like that :(

Today is a :( day.

Thursday, July 22, 2010

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i just want to blog now.
to say what i feel, my feelings that are hard to be convey to a third party.

lots of things happen recently.
i mean like the friendship problem in school, or rather just in my class.
i kind of dont really know how to apprach this kind of problem and offer my help.

firstly, a girl from my class named S sort of like argued with my friends so we start not talking to her. i dont exactly like her also but i dont hate her. i am sitting on the fence you see. then during one of the chinese lesson she just broke down and cried. i comforted her and realise that her bf broke up with her through a sms. jerk. that man dont want her to hang out with guys. so she have to abandon all her male friends and have no choice to stick with the girls, or rather me. cos i appeared to be friendly. note, appeared to be. then now i am in a dilemma cos i want to be with my friends and yet i dont want to ortrosize(i dont know how to spell --") her. what to do?

next, another girl called K was badly ortrosize by my class guys. i knew it. i think she can feel it, she asked me but i didnt tel her. i just say that its common for them to do so. and today she broke down. i felt so bad. i couldnt anything. and i cried. cos i was sitting in front of the "bad guys" and they act like its none of their buisness and think that it was a joke. and when my form teacher asked them what happened, they make it sound like its her fault. i called her just now and talk to her. hope that she is alright.

i really hate all this things that are happening around me. cos it happened before. not to me. bt i did it to someone whom i souldnt have and i am still regreting for doing so. i really hate myself for doing that in the past cos i know how badly i hurt the other party and i dont wish anything like this to be happening again. i thought i had grown mature. but seems like i had not. i still cant help when this kind of situation happens. i think i need councilling.

now the only way out is to trash things out. at least thats what i think. i told K all that i can to help her survive this thing. and i am going to talk to S tomorrow. i really hope everything will be fine. if not i will go concilling. my current emotion state is very very very unstable. haix.

seriously hope that everything will be alright and i can be more mature.

Monday, July 19, 2010

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woohoo~!

i typed a bunch of stuff and i cancelled it. --"
i think its a good thing that i am still so optimistic. maybe a bit overboard.

i kinda of miss my childhood though i dont remember much or rather any.
but looking through the photos was fun. ^^

i wish to turn back time but will choose not to.
别让回忆留在昨天,let's move on

Saturday, July 17, 2010

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and, i finally blogged. =)

lots of thing happened since the last time i blogged.
i failed terribly for my exams. 3 "U"s, 2 "S"s and maybe one "C". U is like lesser than 40% LOL. i think maybe i got to work harder. MAYBE.

i feel like just lying on the bed all day long.
feel like going out to play some sports or just run
feel like going to the beach at night to enjoy the breeze
feel like diving into the waters to forget everything
feel like being a good girl
feel like falling in love with you

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Monday, June 7, 2010

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long time since i last blogged.
recently, went for ab camp and sjab camp.

ab camp was really enriching. cos like all the people there have leadership position and qualities. so i learnt a lot from them and the activities itself teaches me a lot too =) had the night expedition which is like the finale,last night, walk throughout, about 8 hours like that. walk non-stop from ajc to marina barrage. and is walk very fast those kind..
then the last bit i got to lead. read the map and the rest follow. i went the wrong way like for 3 times.. and "hai" my team got to walk like maybe a few hundred meters more. feel very bad. then i walk very fast also, at the end got one of them injured but i didnt know and kept walking. felt reallwy really bad. i think i really have no leadership quality. be a foller seems better. ya conclusion is i learnt a lot.

reached home at about 5pm plus then wanted to meet fs at 7pm to go sjab camp when i have training next morning at 8am. so unrealistic. i "gao pan le zi ji" in the end oversleep. so planned to rest well and go for training the next day. but was too tired and my knees hurt so i pon training and went back to sleep again. afternoon went for art competition at my house downstairs, won the first runner up for the open categary. =) 30 bucks ^^

reach rss at about 8 and join in the camp. got this cute sec one there =) my focus for the camp lol!!! joking only i not that despo. lol. camp was fun i guess. wore full u.. i think is the last time i am wearing it. kind of miss it. took some photos for memories though :) everything was okay i guess. i was still as high for campfire. when ever the fire is big(cos of addition of kerosine) i will start cheering very loudly "campfire's burning now, campfire burning now, burning now, burn burn burn!' with thahira and hanis. then the rest of the cadets will continue in a very slow pace --" and they will complete the whole cheer without fail "campfire burning in the dark dark night and we go woo yeah, yipeeyipee yeah" and they repeat this line again. omg so died. then at the end when the fire is dying out, i sang "campfire's dying now, campfire dying now, dying now, die die die" and guess what?! they continue the whole cheer again. --" totally dun have the camp mood man. wished ellis was there :(

anyway, i went back to sleep, knowing that i got 2 mass tutorials the next day. and guess what? i ponned. cos i was too tired and continued o sleep.. felt abit guilty. a bit only. haix. i need to start doing work and revision!!!

Saturday, May 22, 2010

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and my brother just came to me and ask me if i got a boyfriend.
i say no and he insisted that i am lying.
LOL!!

how i wish i had one! HAHA =)

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my knees hurt terribly.
thursday pe, then cca, friday cca, this morning training also.
got to rest. don't even feel like walking.

got squash "competition" during the june holidays.
i can't even hit the balls well and cant serve well also. super cock eyes.
got to improve :( if not competition - 11-0 LOL.

feel kind of wierd, i still have to do my sjab stuff.
i already graduated.
i dont know why am i having this commitment.
when i was running yesterday i thought about why i was running.
is it worth it to train so hard?
then i came to a conclusion.

don't do something just because it's worth it. do it because you want to experince, learn and enjoy.

Monday, May 17, 2010

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getting on with life aimlessly.
all my work undone, pilling up but still not doing them..
should i do now? or wake up earlier tomorrow morning to do. i know i confirm wont wake up one. sian.
dont feel like doing anything. just want to sleep now.
i think i am going to sleep and not do my work.
whatever lah.
i am a bloody slacker. haix

Thursday, May 13, 2010

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i am not in a very good mood now. but i think i should physco myself to think positively. befoe that, i need to rant.
OMG. WTh. i spent like nearly 2 hours trying to type in the product key for microsoft in my laptop. i find that stupid code for like 45 mins and almost went crazy! then when i finally found that stupid thing under my laptop, i just cant get it right!! i think there is sth wrong with the system lo!!! waste my precious time!! rarely am i motivated to do schoolwork and whenever i tried to do so, there is always some problem! OMG I HATE THIS.
and that irritating ymca project! taking up so much of my time. cannot be i give up now what!! i should had use the word "we" but i am feeling "i" now. it is not only you that is busy okay?! i also very very busy! its not only you need to find articles okay?! i also need! so what if you are the leader. this is already not the first time! the other time i need to present that thing and you just edit partially and go and sleep. then i got to stay up to edit that thing. you care? i dont think so. you only care about the result. i could almost use the "F" word. omg. i cant stand this.. :"( and now tears are welling up in my eyes.

fine. i will cool down. i wont cry, i will be happy. i will willingly finish all my work. i will. i will try.
i am going to work hard for what i want and not just saying i want it.

Monday, May 10, 2010

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read ellis's blog. she seems to be getting on great with life. happy for her.
remembered how i treated her during our secondary school times..
ellis, i am sorry. i really am.
sorry to had said those nasty things to you, sorry to ignored you. sorry for not being there for you when you need me. sorry to make you feel terrible. and thanks for forgiving me. though we might not be best friends, but you are a very important friend in my life. thank you :)

got to do my work. but arent doing. omg.. where's the motivation? decided to blog anyway. i failed my maths test. then i suddenly recalled that i always failed my maths tests in secondary school. my maths teacher expressed her disappointment. cos i failed badly. 7/30. omg. haix. i promised to do better next time. tomorrow got physic test and i havent start revising. doubt i will do so but will try. will try only. lol

Friday, April 30, 2010

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cuiping is a happy girl =)
went to cwp with mum.
bought 4 orange files, 3 orange pens and one very nice orange shirt!
woohoo~~ cool and happy. satisfied
i am going to make myself a orange pencil case with my sec one class t when i am free! :)

life is good for me. i think.
as long as you know how to apreciate, i bet everyone can enjoy life too!
i love school, i love everyone, i love every new day that is ahead of me!
woohoo~ cheers!!

EVERYONE, SMILE AND BE HAPPY!! DON'T WORRY TOO MUCH =))
p.s i got a new aim in life.
to make someone happy everyday ^^

Monday, April 26, 2010

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"To appreciate life is not difficult; what it takes is just a laugh and a smile"
i am appreciating life.
i am happy.
glad to be alive everyday. =)

i am still awake. sad. doing my pi now. omg. i should sleep. but i am not tired yet cos of my nap of 4 hours in the afternoon. finishing soon. last bit. jia yous!!!

love schoolling. best thing on earth. =)

Wednesday, April 21, 2010

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WOOHOO~~
my mood had been good so far.
i hope this remain for the rest of my life. =)
starting to be motivated to do some work.
i decided not to be bothered by the rest. i will of course advise if i think there is a need but whether the other party listen, i cant really control.
after blogging i am going to copy my chem notes and revise my econs notes!
jia you!
I WANT TO BE A MUGGER! YEAH! :)
but i am lagging behind a lot.
still, homeworks, wait for me k! i will catch up with you soon! :)

Friday, April 16, 2010

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=))
feeling very happy these few days. i am starting to love school( note, it does not include homework)
anyway!!
last year i went to kl purelife society to do cip.
then there are a few guys that i am closer with.
i wrote to them last year but there is no reply at all.
until..
JUST NOW.
OMG i recieved a letter from one of them. OMG.
I AM SO HAPPY!!! =)
YAY~NESS!!!

Saturday, April 10, 2010

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so unappreciated. i hate this feeling.
forget it. i am going to attitude liao.
shut up

Tuesday, April 6, 2010

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sicked. pon school. xD
feeling better i think. got to do some work later. lagging behind a lot.
going to polyclinic later. to get mc. no more letters. must have mc.

yesterday was terrible. woke up in the morning and found out that i was sweating like hell. it like sweating more than how i do after running 2.4km.
so took my temperature and it was 38.2. kinda high for me as my normal temperature is 36.5. still went to school. on the train, i felt like fainting. it was quite cold. but i was still sweating. in school, morning assembly where we have to stand and listen to the annoucement,i was feeling so weak and i just went back and ask my teacher if i could sit down. then she asked if i am feeling sick then i started to tear. yup i cried very easily when i am sick.
after that went for first lesson, pw. mr yip gave us sth to read then i was laying on the table reading. mr yip doesnt like his students to rock the chair, lay on table, sleep, not preparing a chair for him and so on. so he asked me if i am not feeling well in a sarcastic way. then i was like "ya" but still sit up straight lah. then i felt very very cold and asked him if i can go out. then at outside i cried. haix. crybaby.
next lesson was physic lecture. i ponned the whole lecture. went to some classroom and slept.
after that i was really really very sick liao. went to sickbay. camped there lol. jc is really different from secondary school. the staff just asked me to sign in then i just go to sleep liao. they didnt even to bother to ask how am i not feeling well or to take my temperature. slept in there from 9.45 to 1.15. ate panadol that samantha gave and felt better so went for chem practical. i think i was very restless then at the end of the lesson ms lim offered to call a cab for me. so good right?
slept since i reached home till this morning when i decided to pon school cos temperature was 37.9. highest temperature was 39.0.

fever starting to subside now. but cough is making me terrible.

Tuesday, March 30, 2010

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i know that nowadays ppl dont blog. but as a slow person. i just started to like blogging and i think that this is a better platform to do what i want.
anyway, just want to share this.

FRIENDSHIP - Carol Elaine Faivre-Scott

each of us has a hidden place
somewhere deep within ourselves;
a place where we go to get away,
to think things through,
to be alone, to be ourselves.

this unique places, where we confront our deepest feelings,
becomes a storehouse of all our hopes,
all our needs, all our dreams,
and even our unspoken fears.
it encompasses the essence of who we are and what we want to be.

but now and then, whether by chance or design,
someone discovers a way into that place we thought was ours alone.
and we allow that person to see, to feel and to share
all the reason, all the uncertainty
and all the emotion we've stored up there.

that person adds new perspective to our hidden realm,
then quietly settles down to his own corner of our special place,
where a bit of himself will stay forever.

and we call that person a friend,

Thursday, March 25, 2010

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gosh. this is so damn lag. =(
i am so damn noob. =(
i still dont really know how to function my notebook.
bluetooth arh settings all those. all i dunno. omg.. so noob. =((
redo my econs quiz cos i didnt print last time. REDO leh. omg.
then must print, total like 20 pages! but my printer no ink.. ps to ask my classmates to help me print so much.. so i think i just dun hand in tomorrow. must buy the ink and print myself. haix.

i want to talk about it. but not with ppl in my school..
AAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
how to forget you? when i have to see you almost everyday?
how to not like you? by hating you seems to be the best way.
but i cant bring myself to do it. what do i have to do to let go?
i already know its impossible liao but i dont know what to do...

忘不了,也放不下。

Saturday, March 20, 2010

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it's not up to you to decide what the future holds.
even if you have done your best, there are always ppl out there better than you, putting in more effort.
life is like that. so there is no need to dwell about. life is still long. this is like no big deal. serious. it is just a stepping stone of growing up. you will understand it when you grow up.

塞翁失马,焉之非福

Friday, March 19, 2010

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wa. in this short period of time, a lot of things happened.
i overslept. had training in the morning and was suppose to report at 9 in school. then i woke up only at 9.30. then even if i rush i will reach at about 10.30.. so i decided not to go. but xin juan called me and ask me to go as they haven start training.. so i prepared ans went to school. just when i was reaching yck mrt station, she called me and ask where i was. and told me that they are all going off liao.. then i was like.. erm. ok then i go to collect the stuff(court shoes and eye protecter) lo since i already made the trip liao. then when i reached the shoe and eye protecter out of stock liao. so i didnt manage to train or to buy any stuff. so wasted trip. but is my fault. cant blame on anybody. brought it upon myself.
today is the competition for sjab.. wish all of them good luck. didnt went down to help cos got cca. but as i said, i overslept. omg. i feel so bad.


Never give up on something that you can't go a day without thinking about.
-- Author Unknown
i just did it! =)

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just saw from fs's blog. "we are the best".
i rmb what ms milhan said last year when i went for the sing-indo camp. we (as in riversidians) were singing our school cheer, "we are the best" in the presence of the other school ppl. ya. indeed, we were loud and other schools were all looking at us. and i know that at that moment, all of us experienced a sense of pride. until when ms milhan told us that it was not a sensible thing to do at all. in the first place, we are not the best. i know. there are always ppl out there better than us. we are not the best. got to be humble you know? if not you will be the one disgracing yourself. just try your best. its not important if you cant be the best cos you will never be the best when compared to someone else. irony right?

i tot i will be able to finish to my e learning by tuesday. lol. i think i over-estimate myself liao. i am still struggling with it. wanted to finish by today as if i am not wrong, today is the due date. but i cant access to the maths. wa.. sian. when i finally got the motivation to finish, i cant access. i guess this is what life is about.

its too obvious isn't it?

Thursday, March 18, 2010

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wanted to post on something more chim so i did my research.

david copperfield. sound familar right? a very famous magician which everyone will know i guess. but recently have no news about him right? cos at 2007 november he was accused of raping. then he actually had some world tour in asia which include singapore. so it was all cancelled. and till now you dun hear much about him.

next, michael jackson. ya. he just passed away in June 25, 2009 from a drug overdose, amidst preparations for his "This Is It" concert series.
In 1993 he was accused of child sexual abuse, though no formal charges were brought. In 2005 he was tried and acquitted of similar allegations. and just some info about his face. he was a "black" american initially. (i am afraid that i might sound racist. but seriously no offence.) there are rumours about him wanting to look more like a white american. but according to him, he was pround of being a black american and it was actually some accidents(hair catching on fire, suffering from second and third degree burn on head and face. also when he was practicing his dance steps, he fell and injured his nose) that caused him to have sugeries. also in 1986 he was diagnosed with Vitiligo, a rare disease that causes drastic depigmentation in patches of the skin and therefore he had to "bleached" his skin. his father’s taunts and a growing addiction to surgery may have played a part in the star’s continued changes to his nose.

then we have a recent one, jack neo. he is a famous flim maker, director and actor in singapore. he was famous for his character as liang po po and liang xi mei. he also flimed 16 movies including the most recent one, being human. there are doubts that his movie will be "selling hot" due to his recent scandal. you should have heard about it ba? about having external affairs with 11 girls and trying to hook up young girls, asking them to hotels and so on.

lastly, i want to talk about dr william tan. he was someone that i looked up to(didnt want to use the word idol cos doesn't sound right.) he went to my secondary school and had some inspiring talk when i was sec2 i think. that time i was so motivated by him and i really look up to him as someone which i would want to be. someone who overcome challenges and gain the respect of many. but now, he is sued by he ex-girlfriend i would say for some issue on money. they had sexual intimancy and broke up in 2006 due to many disagreements as what dr william said.

conclusion is that these people which i mentioned are famous ppl and they had bright future ahead of them. david copperfield who could easily earned 57 million annually. although he is making a comeback( "Grand Illusion" tour in may, tickets sold at 27 to 57 dollars), i believe he would had lost a portion of his supporters, especially so, with liu qian popularity now. the rest i shall not further elaborate as it is too lenghty.. just want to say that because of the mistakes that people are making, they might have to sacrify thier future, their family and most importantly the trust that others had placed on them. and apparently, when these rich and famous people made mistakes, they will have "pay more". this is the opportunity cost. side track. i seriously think that everything in life can be link to econs. =)

CREDITS: wikipedia and http://popmusic.suite101.com/article.cfm/freak_accidents_changed_michael_jacksons_face#ixzz0iRXSkbI9

Monday, March 15, 2010

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Kaiji, the ultimate gambler. will rate it 3.5/5 so sorry that i didnt rate it 4/5. nice movie, funny, inspiring and touching. however i just dun think it is worth a four stars. at least it wasnt as good as "daybreakers" or "percy jackson.." or "sorority row".

reached home at 12 plus.. wanted to e-learn. but was too tired so went to sleep instead.

oh ya, fit(my group of very close friends since primary school. as to what does fit stands for, it a secret :]) bought a bottle for me. orange somemore. i like. but my sister bought me one too. then now i dunno which one to use. --"
thanks. appreciated though. =))

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e-learning~ing. so sian for econs. have to watch the videos then answer the questions. the thing is that i cant find the answers! i watched the video for 3 times liao. falling asleep so went to do others instead. yuan lai physical fitness also have elearning. about heartrate de. quite interesting though. not sure if is must do quiz only or courseware only or worse, both.

omg. so distracting. was looking at fb de stuff and blogs instead of e-learning~ing. OMG. got to concentrate.

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been feeling sick since yesterday. note, is feeling. not real sick with mc.
so yesterday didnt went for the meeting ps.

today had maths lecture for an hour. suppose to start at 11 but only start at 11.30. so he rush a bit. didnt understand some part cos i was slow. by right we wanted to have a class movy fest, "Green Zone" at 11.35.. so in the end have to watch 2pm de. went for lunch at kfc. my class is like so damn noisy and i was very ps then me and the girls just leave and ask them to come out. so embrassing~~. somemore their conversation is those not decent de. --"

hmmm... the movie.. i think is not very appealing to me. so will rate it 2.5/5 if you are a thinking person, you will like it. there is like hidden message here and there. and, you better know a bit about the history of iraq and iran war. if not you will be like me, blur blur, keep asking the ppl next to you what is happening. the show is nc16.. i think is because of the language use. kind of rough. but other than that, no violence or sexual or whatever. this is like the second time i watch a nc16 movie without screaming much. instead i screamed when i saw the advertisment for some other movie.

watching "Kaiji" later at 9.30pm. cant get good seatings for the 6.55 de slot.. so change to 9.30 de instead. hope will be a good movie =)

i think i am blushing.. what's wrong?

Saturday, March 13, 2010

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i bought a notebook from the IT show yesterday. quite nice i think. at least i like it.
jammed in the carpark for damn long lo. like near to 20 mins. so crowded in suntec. saw arron and zijian.
trying to function the notebook now. i am very noob at this kind of thing so will take a long time..
got to plan what to do in the holiday liao. got a lot of things to do but limited time. scarcity.
watching the "A ji hua" now. its a hong kong show? but chinese version lah.
i think today is da jue ju =)

Wednesday, March 10, 2010

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when people get into a difficult discussion, feelings are inevitably involved. these include frustration, arrogance, indifference, anger, helplessness, anxiety and so on.
read from the straits time de recruit session.

so just to summaries the whole passage, normally when there is a problem, like even family agruement, the problem is usually not solved as the "participants" tend to use fright, flight or freeze. the feelings are neglected and feelings are often mis-interpreted. so we must try to understand and put ourselve in the other party's shoes.

"people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made feel." by Maya Angelou.

inspired ba? =))

Monday, March 8, 2010

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wah today finally rained. so song. i walked under the rain. cos always have to worry about stuff like wearing white shirt, "important" homeworks in my bag and so on.. feel great! =)
today had our heats. it like sport carnival lo. just that is the running. ran in 4x100 and 8x50 but i think my class didnt win anything for the girls cos.. haha.. we not that strong lo.

the "cruel temptation" is (according to my parents) getting more and more not nice to watch. then just now when my dad watched halfway, he just switch channel. lol. drove to experation liao haha.

having slight muscle cramps. got a bad feeling that i will have cramps tonight. those kind pain till you wake up.. =( bless me lol

Saturday, March 6, 2010

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CUIPING says:
do you still rmb what you wrote for the pw?
after the part bout the ppl like children wil jump on it
" it is ____ in putting"randomrisation ulyeritthm?

You have just sent a nudge.

JonSaw says:
oh
the pw thing
nope. thats under the fun factor
since children like games then they'll wait for the green light and play the game thus not jaywalking
something like that
the algorithm thing is how it works. the technical stuff. like wiring and stuff

CUIPING says:
can you tell me the spelling for the theory?

JonSaw says:
fun theory?

CUIPING says:
nono...
the algorithm thing

JonSaw says:
o.o its just a computer program.
In mathematics, computer science, and related subjects, an algorithm is an effective method for solving a problem using a finite sequence of instructions. Algorithms are used for calculation, data processing, and many other fields.
for example
using visual,
CASE 1: IF today's date is NOT Friday THEN exit this CASE instruction ELSE
CASE 2: IF today's date is Friday AND the document is located at 'D:/My Documents' AND there is paper in the printer THEN print the document (and exit this CASE instruction) ELSE
CASE 3: IF today's date is Friday AND the document is NOT located at 'D:/My Documents' THEN display 'document not found' error message (and exit t
so can also program if switch 1(green on) then randomly select a square to light up.
okay its just getting confusing now right?

thats my calssmate. --"
wasted a lot of time today.. slept from 12 plus to 6. still feeling very tired now. and i realise that i am very slow at doing computer stuff which include typing.

anyway, just saw from facebook, mr radah fan club.
a quote from mr radah:
"when wealth is lost, nothing is lost
when health is lost, something is lost
when character is lost, everything is lost"

Monday, March 1, 2010

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i fell down this morning. again. when i was rushing for the train, i ran up the escalator then i fell. pain. but okay lah.. bleed a bit only and got blue-black.

doing gp now. i wont finish as usual, but at least i did sth so if the teacher call my name and ask me to present i got sth to say. i like chinese lessons. and econs. the rest.. erm... no comments.

am i very low profile and quiet? or its just that ppl dun remember me easily. one of my og ppl and one of my classmates actually didnt know me. even if i tell them my name. --" wah. sad sia.

having pe tml morning. have to change straight after the assembly and change back imediately for physic lecture. =(

desperation is the best inspiration

Sunday, February 28, 2010

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I am so full now. Just finished my " huo guo". I think I ate too much today. For breakfast at 11 plus I had like 2 serving of " chui GUI" then went to help out at fei loong temple as student volunteer and have lunch. Those kind you eat during wedding de, eight course meal. Had ice cream and durian puffs and finally endding off with the huo guo.

In the afternoon, fengshan tiffany zhixian patricia benjamin and sheng hao came to my house and gave me a suprise. Thank you. I was like just bathe finish then haven even comb my hair... But really, APPRECIATED! =)

I haven't finish my homework. Went to library just now to do. Didn't complete much but I not going to do liao. Just going to leave it there and pray not to be scolded. Tomorrow having training. Like that confirm cannot finish work again. Then just now sheng hao ask me " you haven't finish your work, how?" then I was like "do I look like those kind of ppl that will care about not finishing homework on time? Ya I do but the fear is not large enough to overcome my laziness.
I am going to sleep now. Hope that things will get better..

Thursday, February 25, 2010

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i want a study area in my house just for me. cant concentrate when the tv is on, parents talking about some interesting stuff, brother talking on the phone beside me. i am easily affected. distractions.

got to subcribe to st. my school is like make it compulsory. but i don't read. even in secondary school, when we subcribed.. have to be more self-disciplined. if not sure fail gp. =( school work is getting heavier. need to catch up a lot. sad.

maturity.
it means not letting others to have a chance to humiliate you.

Saturday, February 20, 2010

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Money is the roots of all evil. There is this time that I am suppose to return my mother 50 dollars. Then the night before I place the money on the table liao. Then the next day, it's gone. And everyone in my family didn't see it so my mother say that I didn't even return the money. But the fact is that I did what. Since they don't believe me, i just have to fork out 50 dollars myself lo. Then now my younger sister owe me 2.50 dollars then she say she return liao but I didn't recieve it what. Then my mother say she just need to pay 1.25 dollar and she think that it is the fairest way. So why is it that last time I have to pay the full 50 dollars instead of just 25 dollars. It's a big difference okay?! She just don't believe me.

But ever since I started working I don't regard this amount as "a lot" liao and will always try to convince myself that 50 dollars is only 10 hours of work. Whatever lo.

Unfair.

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Just came back from my relative's house. Lost money.. But still okay ba cos overall still win a bit.. Today I fell down went I ran. Sad. Cos it's like ending liao then stil fall =( but okay lah. Not that pain. My first aid really very rusty liao (although it's not good in the first place lah) but nevermind ba cos I think I am not going to continue with... Erm ya. Long time never work liao. The ppl had been calling and asking me to work. I miss work and the ppl there but I won't be working cos can't even cope with school work. Hope that things will get better. I want to learn Malay before next year. And also to own a good camera =)

Friday, February 19, 2010

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OMG!! tomorrow got CCA. going to run early in the morning.. =(
ermm.. ermmmmmmm. eerrmmmmmmmmmm. sad
after that going relative's house.

today meet my pdg(class) de ppl. quite interesting. and the "part time" tutor is only 19 this year. only 2 years older than me lo.
then we played this ice-breaker game that require you to say 2 truth and 1 lie of yourself. actually for the welcome party wanted to play this one. i rejected the idea. and i got to play it.. hmm.. okay.

one of the truth i said was that i cheated in chem spa. actually.. didnt really cheat. but i just feel that i cheated although the question was changed. ya. long story. nothing to be proud of but i wont deny the fact.

went for the oral workshop in the end. cant change date. but was quite fun.. so still okay ba.
its not the presentation that scare ppl. its the process of waiting for your chance to present.

Thursday, February 18, 2010

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went out to buy chocolate for my ogls and shun bian went to deposit money.
tao han bought one chocolate and want the 3 of the ogls to share? haha. so i go buy 2 more lo. but its the thoughts that counts lah =)

aww.. tomorrow got workshop form 2.30 to 5.30..
i no need go back liao lo. ellis hanis thahira got go leh.. sad.
hope i can do the workshop on next monday instead..
oh ya. my friend de hong bao money a lot sia. just from her parents is 2k liao. then she still say very little. omg. all her relative standard give 20 dollars hongbao de. my biggest hongbao was that amount.

lesson learnt. zuo ren yao zhi zu. due to the unlimited wants of ppl and limited reasources, this led to scracity. lol. econs.

my maths lecturer said this in class today
"this is very important. put a star next to it. girls, you can put two stars."

Wednesday, February 17, 2010

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wa. cant cope with school work.. the lectures are very fast paced. especially for chem.. i very interested in econs. thats like the only subject that got link to me. but a lot of ppl say very hard to score.

cny was fun but the fun was short-live. looking forward to next new year..
currently my school timing is very irregular.. friday's timetable is the worse. morning have a talk from 7.45 to 8.45 then wait all the way till 11.15 then meet the pd tutor. then after that have to wait till 2.30 then got a workshop.. haix then sjab de welcome party at 1.30. by the time i reach confirm endding liao lo. sian.

oh. learn in pw today. ipod can be charged up to 80% of the battery in just one hour and last 10 hours for continuous music playback. cool right? steve jobs is a cool guy.

hong bao money this year seems to be more than last year's. maybe cause i win money =) shh..

Saturday, February 13, 2010

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happy new year! =)
currently at mapaysia. but this year dont have the new year feel..
maybe later will be better.
yesterday celebrated my sister birthday again. but just have cake after bai bai and fang pou.

heard from my relative that the econmy in malaysia getting worse.
even if you go on streets, you wont feel the new year feel cos nobody on streets.. but just now, midnight, got a lot of ppl light up firework leh.
normally my that street no fireworks de. then we will like see those rich ppl's firework. but this year.. both my neighbour light up fireworks.. then very nice, cos just in front of us. very big. and guess what, my ah-gong also got ligt up firework! first time leh.

waiting for my cousins to return..

Friday, February 12, 2010

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watched percy jackson yesterday. quite nice. percy jackson very cute. =) will rate the show 4/5.
my ogl bought roses for us. thanks =)
cny celebration. wu hua ke shuo.
too cramp. hall too small. seriously.

met up with ellis and puteri for lunch. at first got like 7 ppl going de. all last minute say cant go. but nevermind. still got chance de.

went to admiraty with joanne to cut hair. ugly hair. poor service. the hair dresser practically just don't.. i don't know how to explain. if you want to know, go and try. spent 13 dollars just for that. so what if it is a salon? no big deal.

going to malaysia tomoorow. cny coming. =)

Wednesday, February 10, 2010

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my sister helped me to download 1252 songs in my ipod!
omg. so good. must buy good present for her. ( as requested by her )
went back to riverside today.. to see welcome party.
overall still okay ba. 18 new sec one boys. lol.
went timezone to play on sunday.. spent about 70 dollars like that! but cos is double so actually spend 3o like that. but still.. shouldnt spend so much on this kind of thing anymore...

oh ya. celebrated my sister birthday in advance. actually is she celebrate with her secondary school de good friends but i join in lah.. --" had kfc and pizzahut and swensen de ice-cream cake. plus "self-made" chocolate fountain.

school is still okay till now. cos just tempo lecture so still quite slack. school ends at around 12.15, one plus like that.

tommorow going watch percy jackson and the lightning thief! =) with jo and kong ba. although suppose to watch with my og ppl for the movy fest thing but.. jo and kong more important ma. haha

oh my current school de cny celebration only one hour.. sad. =(
sure not fun de.. miss CNY celebration in riverside.
got the god of fortune 'giving out" sweets.. then still got everyone so high sing the 'lai lai lai wo men guo xin nian" song.. where everyone will do the "gong xi going xi" and the "yam seng" part together. kind of miss secondary school...

Saturday, February 6, 2010

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OMG. yesterday i ran 4.8km! =)
for my cca trial. today muscle pain :(
going back to malaysia soon :)
new year coming soon!

Tuesday, February 2, 2010

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Yesterday went to eat sakura to celebrate my brother's birthday. eat till so full lo but I think not worth it.. About 25 dollars. brought iPod touch!! OMG. spent about 500 dollars... Heart pain sia. Now using the iPod to post this. Yesterday and today's orientation was pretty fun. The dance is damn nice, so is the cheers and games. In conclusion, I enjoyed myself a lot =)

Sunday, January 31, 2010

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money is indeed a very sensative issue.

Friday, January 29, 2010

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just to update. i went to school and was late in the end. lol.
the sms said that have to report at 7.30. i reached yck at 7.30. saw brenda and walk to school together. the thing is that both of us don't know how to go. so in the end, walked one whole round. reached school only at 7.50 like that. and we was suppose to report at 7 cos different school have different timing.

felt very out of place in new school. hope will get use to it soon. the school is like primary school. serious. the canteen is worse than riverside de. no offence. the classroom setting is really like primary school de. those trapizum table with short chairs. tables seems to be short too, together with the celling. two years only. so doesnt really matter to me..

slept in the auditorium during those talks. was too tired. cos of work. will be stopping. must stop.

i chose my subject combination liao. PCME. but chem as h1. cos my chem is not that good afterall.


"if you think that it is tough, then the more you should accept the challenge and try it."

Wednesday, January 27, 2010

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i am going to school now. hope i wont be late.

Tuesday, January 26, 2010

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i just got my pay.
not even 300 dollars. sad.

celebrated with tiffany. together with zx, fs, ben and sh.
the birthday song played halfway. suddenly. so loud.
wanted to sing along. but was laughing lol. so funny.
hope she enjoyed and like the present. =)

oh. congrats. i drop my contacts again. --"
this time is the left side de. drop and never found again~~
tommorrow working again. thursday also, friday also. dunno if will affect school.
but seriosly speaking, the thing that i think i will miss most when i start school is... work. so i think i going to continue working even when i start school lol.

my pay might increase. =) 50 cents more per hour. good. ^^

Monday, January 25, 2010

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY TIFFANY! (25/1)

didnt celebrate with her yesterday. but going out later to eat lunch. =)
yesterday went out with jo and kong. went to lotone and eat pastamania. practically there's nothing there that make us want to stay so went off in less than 2 hours.
came back to causeway point. watched "day breakers" and "new york, i love you" or was it "i love you, new york"
"day breakers" is a nice show =) i would rate it 4/5 stars
but. "ny, ily" is the worst show i ever watched. i dont get the link at all. there is like many little stories. some are abit interesting though. but the story end without having an ending. jo was pratically falling asleep. felt scammed. wasted 6 dollars. but is jo treat de so haha. and it is rated nc16. LAME. no plot at all. no NC16 story. maybe just a short conversation about sex. conclusion is that, its not worth it to spend money to watch this movie.

last monday went to malaysia with kong and her mother. bought a bag, 5 pairs of socks and a dress. spend only about 50 singdollar. quite worth it. i guess.
mum bought me a watch. which i requested for but to realise later that i dont really like it.

just went to pray.
spend less than half an hour to get there, pray and get back.
on the day of o level english, went there to pray. so now must go back to show appreciation.
later maybe going to take pay after the lunch. rich. =)

Thursday, January 21, 2010

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very busy this few days..
saturday after eating and playing "ma jiang" at jo's house went to RESORT WORLD =) cool right?
cos my sister working there. so the family members and friends got to have a cheap trial stay.
slept in the festive hotel on the first day then my sister continued to stay in hard rock hotel on the second day and hotel michael on the last day. but we only stay one day lah. will update the picture when i free (not sure when it will be.. damn busy for the next few days too..)
anyway, main point is that i wore contacts then the right side one drop off when i was on the train to harbourfront --" but lucky manage to find on my left cheek (LOL) when i was in my sister's bf's car. lucky right =)

in fact.. almost every day that i wore contacts, they will drop. --" and i lost one of the right side contacts. lost and never found :(

Wednesday, January 13, 2010

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finally got blog. at least an official one. =)
going to start a new life soon, which is sth that i had been looking forward since long time ago.. cos don't really enjoyed my secondary school life..

-i skipped tomorrow's work at hilton although the in-charge say she cant find replacement xD
-going back to school on friday for recruitment
-meeting with kong, hui, jo and jane on saturday :)
-celebrating sis's birthday on saturday night(staying over at some hotel. but my family big, 6 of us share a room i think. my sister ask us to bring sleeping bag along --")
-working at st. regis on sunday :))
that's all.