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i know that nowadays ppl dont blog. but as a slow person. i just started to like blogging and i think that this is a better platform to do what i want.
anyway, just want to share this.

FRIENDSHIP - Carol Elaine Faivre-Scott

each of us has a hidden place
somewhere deep within ourselves;
a place where we go to get away,
to think things through,
to be alone, to be ourselves.

this unique places, where we confront our deepest feelings,
becomes a storehouse of all our hopes,
all our needs, all our dreams,
and even our unspoken fears.
it encompasses the essence of who we are and what we want to be.

but now and then, whether by chance or design,
someone discovers a way into that place we thought was ours alone.
and we allow that person to see, to feel and to share
all the reason, all the uncertainty
and all the emotion we've stored up there.

that person adds new perspective to our hidden realm,
then quietly settles down to his own corner of our special place,
where a bit of himself will stay forever.

and we call that person a friend,

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gosh. this is so damn lag. =(
i am so damn noob. =(
i still dont really know how to function my notebook.
bluetooth arh settings all those. all i dunno. omg.. so noob. =((
redo my econs quiz cos i didnt print last time. REDO leh. omg.
then must print, total like 20 pages! but my printer no ink.. ps to ask my classmates to help me print so much.. so i think i just dun hand in tomorrow. must buy the ink and print myself. haix.

i want to talk about it. but not with ppl in my school..
AAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
how to forget you? when i have to see you almost everyday?
how to not like you? by hating you seems to be the best way.
but i cant bring myself to do it. what do i have to do to let go?
i already know its impossible liao but i dont know what to do...

忘不了，也放不下。

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it's not up to you to decide what the future holds.
even if you have done your best, there are always ppl out there better than you, putting in more effort.
life is like that. so there is no need to dwell about. life is still long. this is like no big deal. serious. it is just a stepping stone of growing up. you will understand it when you grow up.

塞翁失马，焉之非福

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wa. in this short period of time, a lot of things happened.
i overslept. had training in the morning and was suppose to report at 9 in school. then i woke up only at 9.30. then even if i rush i will reach at about 10.30.. so i decided not to go. but xin juan called me and ask me to go as they haven start training.. so i prepared ans went to school. just when i was reaching yck mrt station, she called me and ask where i was. and told me that they are all going off liao.. then i was like.. erm. ok then i go to collect the stuff(court shoes and eye protecter) lo since i already made the trip liao. then when i reached the shoe and eye protecter out of stock liao. so i didnt manage to train or to buy any stuff. so wasted trip. but is my fault. cant blame on anybody. brought it upon myself.
today is the competition for sjab.. wish all of them good luck. didnt went down to help cos got cca. but as i said, i overslept. omg. i feel so bad.


Never give up on something that you can't go a day without thinking about.
-- Author Unknown
i just did it! =)

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just saw from fs's blog. "we are the best".
i rmb what ms milhan said last year when i went for the sing-indo camp. we (as in riversidians) were singing our school cheer, "we are the best" in the presence of the other school ppl. ya. indeed, we were loud and other schools were all looking at us. and i know that at that moment, all of us experienced a sense of pride. until when ms milhan told us that it was not a sensible thing to do at all. in the first place, we are not the best. i know. there are always ppl out there better than us. we are not the best. got to be humble you know? if not you will be the one disgracing yourself. just try your best. its not important if you cant be the best cos you will never be the best when compared to someone else. irony right?

i tot i will be able to finish to my e learning by tuesday. lol. i think i over-estimate myself liao. i am still struggling with it. wanted to finish by today as if i am not wrong, today is the due date. but i cant access to the maths. wa.. sian. when i finally got the motivation to finish, i cant access. i guess this is what life is about.

its too obvious isn't it?

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wanted to post on something more chim so i did my research.

david copperfield. sound familar right? a very famous magician which everyone will know i guess. but recently have no news about him right? cos at 2007 november he was accused of raping. then he actually had some world tour in asia which include singapore. so it was all cancelled. and till now you dun hear much about him.

next, michael jackson. ya. he just passed away in June 25, 2009 from a drug overdose, amidst preparations for his "This Is It" concert series.
In 1993 he was accused of child sexual abuse, though no formal charges were brought. In 2005 he was tried and acquitted of similar allegations. and just some info about his face. he was a "black" american initially. (i am afraid that i might sound racist. but seriously no offence.) there are rumours about him wanting to look more like a white american. but according to him, he was pround of being a black american and it was actually some accidents(hair catching on fire, suffering from second and third degree burn on head and face. also when he was practicing his dance steps, he fell and injured his nose) that caused him to have sugeries. also in 1986 he was diagnosed with Vitiligo, a rare disease that causes drastic depigmentation in patches of the skin and therefore he had to "bleached" his skin. his father’s taunts and a growing addiction to surgery may have played a part in the star’s continued changes to his nose.

then we have a recent one, jack neo. he is a famous flim maker, director and actor in singapore. he was famous for his character as liang po po and liang xi mei. he also flimed 16 movies including the most recent one, being human. there are doubts that his movie will be "selling hot" due to his recent scandal. you should have heard about it ba? about having external affairs with 11 girls and trying to hook up young girls, asking them to hotels and so on.

lastly, i want to talk about dr william tan. he was someone that i looked up to(didnt want to use the word idol cos doesn't sound right.) he went to my secondary school and had some inspiring talk when i was sec2 i think. that time i was so motivated by him and i really look up to him as someone which i would want to be. someone who overcome challenges and gain the respect of many. but now, he is sued by he ex-girlfriend i would say for some issue on money. they had sexual intimancy and broke up in 2006 due to many disagreements as what dr william said.

conclusion is that these people which i mentioned are famous ppl and they had bright future ahead of them. david copperfield who could easily earned 57 million annually. although he is making a comeback( "Grand Illusion" tour in may, tickets sold at 27 to 57 dollars), i believe he would had lost a portion of his supporters, especially so, with liu qian popularity now. the rest i shall not further elaborate as it is too lenghty.. just want to say that because of the mistakes that people are making, they might have to sacrify thier future, their family and most importantly the trust that others had placed on them. and apparently, when these rich and famous people made mistakes, they will have "pay more". this is the opportunity cost. side track. i seriously think that everything in life can be link to econs. =)

CREDITS: wikipedia and http://popmusic.suite101.com/article.cfm/freak_accidents_changed_michael_jacksons_face#ixzz0iRXSkbI9

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Kaiji, the ultimate gambler. will rate it 3.5/5 so sorry that i didnt rate it 4/5. nice movie, funny, inspiring and touching. however i just dun think it is worth a four stars. at least it wasnt as good as "daybreakers" or "percy jackson.." or "sorority row".

reached home at 12 plus.. wanted to e-learn. but was too tired so went to sleep instead.

oh ya, fit(my group of very close friends since primary school. as to what does fit stands for, it a secret :]) bought a bottle for me. orange somemore. i like. but my sister bought me one too. then now i dunno which one to use. --"
thanks. appreciated though. =))

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e-learning~ing. so sian for econs. have to watch the videos then answer the questions. the thing is that i cant find the answers! i watched the video for 3 times liao. falling asleep so went to do others instead. yuan lai physical fitness also have elearning. about heartrate de. quite interesting though. not sure if is must do quiz only or courseware only or worse, both.

omg. so distracting. was looking at fb de stuff and blogs instead of e-learning~ing. OMG. got to concentrate.

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been feeling sick since yesterday. note, is feeling. not real sick with mc.
so yesterday didnt went for the meeting ps.

today had maths lecture for an hour. suppose to start at 11 but only start at 11.30. so he rush a bit. didnt understand some part cos i was slow. by right we wanted to have a class movy fest, "Green Zone" at 11.35.. so in the end have to watch 2pm de. went for lunch at kfc. my class is like so damn noisy and i was very ps then me and the girls just leave and ask them to come out. so embrassing~~. somemore their conversation is those not decent de. --"

hmmm... the movie.. i think is not very appealing to me. so will rate it 2.5/5 if you are a thinking person, you will like it. there is like hidden message here and there. and, you better know a bit about the history of iraq and iran war. if not you will be like me, blur blur, keep asking the ppl next to you what is happening. the show is nc16.. i think is because of the language use. kind of rough. but other than that, no violence or sexual or whatever. this is like the second time i watch a nc16 movie without screaming much. instead i screamed when i saw the advertisment for some other movie.

watching "Kaiji" later at 9.30pm. cant get good seatings for the 6.55 de slot.. so change to 9.30 de instead. hope will be a good movie =)

i think i am blushing.. what's wrong?

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i bought a notebook from the IT show yesterday. quite nice i think. at least i like it.
jammed in the carpark for damn long lo. like near to 20 mins. so crowded in suntec. saw arron and zijian.
trying to function the notebook now. i am very noob at this kind of thing so will take a long time..
got to plan what to do in the holiday liao. got a lot of things to do but limited time. scarcity.
watching the "A ji hua" now. its a hong kong show? but chinese version lah.
i think today is da jue ju =)

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when people get into a difficult discussion, feelings are inevitably involved. these include frustration, arrogance, indifference, anger, helplessness, anxiety and so on.
read from the straits time de recruit session.

so just to summaries the whole passage, normally when there is a problem, like even family agruement, the problem is usually not solved as the "participants" tend to use fright, flight or freeze. the feelings are neglected and feelings are often mis-interpreted. so we must try to understand and put ourselve in the other party's shoes.

"people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made feel." by Maya Angelou.

inspired ba? =))

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wah today finally rained. so song. i walked under the rain. cos always have to worry about stuff like wearing white shirt, "important" homeworks in my bag and so on.. feel great! =)
today had our heats. it like sport carnival lo. just that is the running. ran in 4x100 and 8x50 but i think my class didnt win anything for the girls cos.. haha.. we not that strong lo.

the "cruel temptation" is (according to my parents) getting more and more not nice to watch. then just now when my dad watched halfway, he just switch channel. lol. drove to experation liao haha.

having slight muscle cramps. got a bad feeling that i will have cramps tonight. those kind pain till you wake up.. =( bless me lol

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CUIPING says:
do you still rmb what you wrote for the pw?
after the part bout the ppl like children wil jump on it
" it is ____ in putting"randomrisation ulyeritthm?

You have just sent a nudge.

JonSaw says:
oh
the pw thing
nope. thats under the fun factor
since children like games then they'll wait for the green light and play the game thus not jaywalking
something like that
the algorithm thing is how it works. the technical stuff. like wiring and stuff

CUIPING says:
can you tell me the spelling for the theory?

JonSaw says:
fun theory?

CUIPING says:
nono...
the algorithm thing

JonSaw says:
o.o its just a computer program.
In mathematics, computer science, and related subjects, an algorithm is an effective method for solving a problem using a finite sequence of instructions. Algorithms are used for calculation, data processing, and many other fields.
for example
using visual,
CASE 1: IF today's date is NOT Friday THEN exit this CASE instruction ELSE
CASE 2: IF today's date is Friday AND the document is located at 'D:/My Documents' AND there is paper in the printer THEN print the document (and exit this CASE instruction) ELSE
CASE 3: IF today's date is Friday AND the document is NOT located at 'D:/My Documents' THEN display 'document not found' error message (and exit t
so can also program if switch 1(green on) then randomly select a square to light up.
okay its just getting confusing now right?

thats my calssmate. --"
wasted a lot of time today.. slept from 12 plus to 6. still feeling very tired now. and i realise that i am very slow at doing computer stuff which include typing.

anyway, just saw from facebook, mr radah fan club.
a quote from mr radah:
"when wealth is lost, nothing is lost
when health is lost, something is lost
when character is lost, everything is lost"

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i fell down this morning. again. when i was rushing for the train, i ran up the escalator then i fell. pain. but okay lah.. bleed a bit only and got blue-black.

doing gp now. i wont finish as usual, but at least i did sth so if the teacher call my name and ask me to present i got sth to say. i like chinese lessons. and econs. the rest.. erm... no comments.

am i very low profile and quiet? or its just that ppl dun remember me easily. one of my og ppl and one of my classmates actually didnt know me. even if i tell them my name. --" wah. sad sia.

having pe tml morning. have to change straight after the assembly and change back imediately for physic lecture. =(

desperation is the best inspiration