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and my brother just came to me and ask me if i got a boyfriend.
i say no and he insisted that i am lying.
LOL!!

how i wish i had one! HAHA =)

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my knees hurt terribly.
thursday pe, then cca, friday cca, this morning training also.
got to rest. don't even feel like walking.

got squash "competition" during the june holidays.
i can't even hit the balls well and cant serve well also. super cock eyes.
got to improve :( if not competition - 11-0 LOL.

feel kind of wierd, i still have to do my sjab stuff.
i already graduated.
i dont know why am i having this commitment.
when i was running yesterday i thought about why i was running.
is it worth it to train so hard?
then i came to a conclusion.

don't do something just because it's worth it. do it because you want to experince, learn and enjoy.

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getting on with life aimlessly.
all my work undone, pilling up but still not doing them..
should i do now? or wake up earlier tomorrow morning to do. i know i confirm wont wake up one. sian.
dont feel like doing anything. just want to sleep now.
i think i am going to sleep and not do my work.
whatever lah.
i am a bloody slacker. haix

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i am not in a very good mood now. but i think i should physco myself to think positively. befoe that, i need to rant.
OMG. WTh. i spent like nearly 2 hours trying to type in the product key for microsoft in my laptop. i find that stupid code for like 45 mins and almost went crazy! then when i finally found that stupid thing under my laptop, i just cant get it right!! i think there is sth wrong with the system lo!!! waste my precious time!! rarely am i motivated to do schoolwork and whenever i tried to do so, there is always some problem! OMG I HATE THIS.
and that irritating ymca project! taking up so much of my time. cannot be i give up now what!! i should had use the word "we" but i am feeling "i" now. it is not only you that is busy okay?! i also very very busy! its not only you need to find articles okay?! i also need! so what if you are the leader. this is already not the first time! the other time i need to present that thing and you just edit partially and go and sleep. then i got to stay up to edit that thing. you care? i dont think so. you only care about the result. i could almost use the "F" word. omg. i cant stand this.. :"( and now tears are welling up in my eyes.

fine. i will cool down. i wont cry, i will be happy. i will willingly finish all my work. i will. i will try.
i am going to work hard for what i want and not just saying i want it.

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read ellis's blog. she seems to be getting on great with life. happy for her.
remembered how i treated her during our secondary school times..
ellis, i am sorry. i really am.
sorry to had said those nasty things to you, sorry to ignored you. sorry for not being there for you when you need me. sorry to make you feel terrible. and thanks for forgiving me. though we might not be best friends, but you are a very important friend in my life. thank you :)

got to do my work. but arent doing. omg.. where's the motivation? decided to blog anyway. i failed my maths test. then i suddenly recalled that i always failed my maths tests in secondary school. my maths teacher expressed her disappointment. cos i failed badly. 7/30. omg. haix. i promised to do better next time. tomorrow got physic test and i havent start revising. doubt i will do so but will try. will try only. lol