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i am wondering, if everything has come to an end. have i understand and accept.

dad asked me, my bro and my younger sis to sit around the dinning table and talked. he cried and hit himelf repeatedly. too much things happening, many thoughts flashed past my mind, couldnt stop crying. i dont know what's the situation now. i dont exactly know if everything is okay now. but definitely i am feeling more "balanced". i know about all the debrief points, all the reflections that should be done and the actions that should follows, but i am not sure if i am really ready to do that truely..

we'll see wont we?