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Happy birthday to me :D
wasn't as bad as I expected I guess..
Yesterday went to eat with squash ppl, pleasant surprise I would say :)
today in school like any other normal days, just that shake hands with lots of ppl and got many ppl wish me happybirthday hahas :) go back home to sleep lols. Suppose to have like steamboat, slept till 7.30 and forced myself to wake up cos I tot everyone is waiting for me, in the end only sis and mum are eating there, the rest not back yet. Then I go eat, they 2 done liao, dad joins me from work then bro too, sis neh come back yet. Haix, what kind of celebration is this! D:
then eat cake lo.
Just opened my present, like them cos I appreciated the thoughts and effort of ppl giving it to me. If it was in the past I might have complain, saying this and this is so what and so on hahas. Mum pass me an ang pao, she was in the room and I was outside then she just call my name. I know she givin angpao but thought she will come to me and pass, haix feel so wierd, kind of feel like she gave for the sake of giving. Though the amount increased, so what? I don't need these money, I rather they(my whole family) spend more quality time with me, talk to me more so I won't feel like I don't belong here.. Sad moments..
Bring back lots of memories. Still remember when I was younger, we dress up when It was our birthday, mum will cook nice food that we like and then we will take photo together, actually, everyone will dress up :) I don't need any money as present really, I rather celebrate my birthday like how it was celebrate when I was young, where you can see my bright smiles from the photos taken...

I feel like I am drifting apart from this family.. And I don't like it :( can't even remember when was the last time we had dinner together or even watch tv shows together. There is like nothing to talk about anymore. I feel so :'( I don't want this to happen, I know it's not only me, all my siblings too. And among us, we don't talk too, like they never even wish me birthday, my younger sis msged me. I rather she wish me in the face. Haix :'(